Today is Thursday. I haven't heard from D since Monday when I went to his concert. He said he would email. I have emailed him every night since then and never get a response. I am trying to tell myself it is only because he is tired and very busy with the workshop and not because he has lost interest or is now ignoring me....or, like so often happened with J, that I did/said something that pissed him off so he is refusing to speak to me. I can't get into another situation like that. I don't want to worry about everything I say or do pissing him off and it being a week of silence before I find out what is going on.
Although, as I said before, D and I haven't really been dating that long and I don't know how serious he is about me (I am not so sure about my own part, for that matter), so why am I so upset about not hearing from him??? He isn't obligated to email me every night--he isn't obligated to email me at all--usually, I just like my emails to be acknowledged in some form or fashion. He's busy; I have to understand that. He has friends in town, whom he only gets to see once or twice a year and with whom he wants/needs to spend time. I can't be greedy with him limited time. I can only be patient and wait until the workshop is over and he contacts me when he has time.
In addition to this, some amount of homesickness and lonliness has hit me this Summer. I wish I could see Chris and talk to June about this stuff in person. Telling them through email isn't the same as getting that reassuring hug or sympathetic look. As with weekends, I hate the unstructuredness of Summer....there is too much time to sit and think. Thinking....bad.
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