Sunday, December 31, 2006

Feelings....nothing more than feelings

Can you be held responsible for other's feelings? If a comment you make is misunderstood or your intention is mistaken and this leads to someone getting hurt...is their fault to be placed?

Talking to J. everything was fine until at a certain point I don't even know what I said but J. thought I was making fun of him and got upset. I don't even know what I said but it was never my intention to be make fun of him. Why would I do that? Why would I make fun of the man I love???

And this is not the first time we have gone through this either. It has happened before and I worry about everything that I say in case it sets him off.

He thinks I was making fun of him, but that was never my intention and I don't think I was doing anything of the sort....I say that I am sorry it seemed like I was making fun of him but he is still upset. There is only so much I can do if he is upset and won't forgive me. I am supposed to see him tonight for New Years, but if he is still mad and doesn't want to see me then I guess that is that. Happy New Years!

I don't have that much time left in Dallas or that many opportunities left to see him. I don't want to spend what little time I have with him fighting or not speaking. I am tired of dealing with the nonsense and am just out of energy....and yet I don't want to do anything but see him. Ah, and therein lies the rub.

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