The word of the day

Today's dictionary.com Word of the Day is "dilatory."

dilatory \DIL-uh-tor-ee\, adjective:
1. Tending to put off what ought to be done at once; given to
procrastination.
2. Marked by procrastination or delay; intended to cause
delay; -- said of actions or measures.

I am moving to Long Island, NY in less than two weeks. I have not started packing a single thing yet. Packing is not the most fun or enticing activity that there is, but it still has to get done. A friend thinks that my dilatoriness regarding packing is related to my anxiety about the impending move...I am sure he is right. I am nervous about leaving a city I have been in for 22 years and moving across the country to a place where I don't know anyone. I am trying to be positive and know that this is a good move for me and everything will turn out great. We'll see.

Once I get to Long Island, though, I will start applying for PhD programs in Art History. I will barely be in Long Island for a year before I am off to another locale. I am pretty sure this Texan will survive for less than a year in New York, and if not, it should be an interesting adventure.

I have very mixed emotions about leaving, which I am sure is completely natural. There are tons of people who I am going to miss--friends and family--and it is going to be hard leaving my job (of which I only have 3 more days of). Its funny...I am realizing how I feel about certain people as it gets closer to leaving and I realize how much I am going to miss them. Someone who I thought was just a friend is going to leave a big whole in my life, while someone who is supposedly closer to me I am not too worried about. It is interesting how you may know someone for a length of time and never really think about them, until one day you look and it suddenly crystallizes how much you care about them. Kind of shocking but usually a very good feeling...unless, of course, you are getting ready to move across the country.

With the way that everyone is in daily, immediate contact through email and instant messenger moving away is not the detachment and loss that it maybe used to be. You may not see certain people everyday anymore, but you can practically have conversations with them through cyber space.

So, if the world is shrinking, why does it feel like I am moving so far away?